when i was growing up i played guitar with a girlfriend at church on Sundays. i used to know alot of cool church songs. yes, there are some very cool church songs.
then when i hit my early 20s i started seeking. i have looked at structured western religions, i have spent time making flower offerings to Krishna at the temples and gotten up at 430am at murwillimbah to chant. i have spent time in quiet contemplation with the satyananda yoga crowd. i have gone to meditation classes in new york where we focused on the spleen to release anger, in an attempt to remove calamity from inside my body. i have spent 10 days in noble silence practising vipassana..more than once
and all these things i have done in pursuit of one thing. peace.
all i have ever wanted is peace. ide like to say I'm a crusader and I'm talking about world peace but i am essentially selfish and self centred (although i try not to live from that place). so what i am talking about is peace within.
i have lived a life that has been incredibly exciting, moving all over the world, meeting amazing people, years of hedonistic excesses and irresponsibility. i have lived through trauma and grief and sadness. i have worked in theatre and film and hospitality and had a thousand other different jobs.
i wouldn't change a minute of my life but until recently i have done all that and lived most of it with no peace.
now that i have peace i cannot live without it. because i have before. i will not go back to that. i still live a fun exciting busy life full of creativity and passion. but not at the price of peace.
well said dear.peace comes from within,and it's a state few obtain.you are indeed blessed.
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