why do people write blogs? why did i write a blog?
when i look back over that brief time where i wrote almost daily i can see it was such a time of change for me. everything was so clear even though i was changing so much, so quickly and on many levels. and i wanted to connect with people. to share my story, whatever that story was.
that story has continued. some of the changes have propelled me in what i suppose could be called a "forward" or positive" direction. and others? have been slow to come but worth the wait.
2 years ago i got up every day and tried to make sense of how my life had become a pit of trying to forgive and let go. mercifully it was a pit filled with light and alot of hope. but a pit nonetheless and one i was secretly desperate to get out of. as quickly as i could. i could never have known where that willingness to look inside myself and towards the light would take me.
i have walked a quiet path. i have taken the time to breath and let go. i have lived quietly and unremarkably and i have found peace.
today i have a small but ever growing and wonderfully rewarding photography business.
i have dreams and plans and am on the way to an interesting future work wise. my family and friends are still the same people (and a few more) and those relationships are stronger than ever.
writing again tonight has reminded me of why i wrote a blog in the first place. and given me a small flame of inspiration to start it up again.
writing is a funnelling of thoughts into a line, a direction, and then if I'm lucky, a story.. and blogging is an invitation to share in that story, that anyone can accept or decline without ever having to acknowledge the decision they made if they don't want to. its the perfect silent connection.
so here i am. blogging. i cant say what direction it'll be going because honestly? I'm not sure.
but when i write its always about channelling an intense driving force i have had since my first memories.. I'm always, in every moment and action, hoping to find the similarities, hoping to have that moment where you and i see we are the same. to find some kind of connection. its all about the connection. let the journey continue ...
