day 8 ** someone who made your life hell**
there are a number of people i am going to discuss here!! at least that's what i thought when i first saw the topic.
but under examination i was neither surprised nor shocked to find that i could not sustain any anger or hurt for long enough put a name to it; on the permanent record as such ..an honest look at these so called crimes against my expectations showed i could trace every slight against my person, my bank account, my sense of security or perceived prestige back to a decision i had made somewhere along the line..
and so i, like others who have tackled this question, have had to admit that i have made my life hell. i have also made it alot of great things too and today its wonderful. but the times where i have suffered the most have been the times where i have been unwilling to let go of what is not working, hand it back to the universe where it belongs and move on. the gap between "perhaps this was a mistake but lets try it one more time" and "I'm now ready to let go" is as close to hell as anything i know..
there is no pain in change. it is in the resistance.......

It's like you're reading my mind. Awesome blog San.
ReplyDeletethanks sweet...i guess when we get down to basics it seems to me we are all wired up the same :-) xxx
ReplyDeleteSitting and look backwards offers a lot of reflection and knowledge. I hope you aren't being too hard on yourself through this.
ReplyDeletehey thanks for the concern. youre right. hindsight can be 20/20. to be honest this blog is not so much a catalayst for refelction as much as a way of sharing what has already been happening for me. this year has brought more change in perspective than i ever thought possible and to be getting free of the blame mentality and moving to personal accountability is paradoxically freeing..but dont worry, i secretly think that all these issues aside? i rock pretty hard !! ;)
ReplyDeleteYou do rock San ... we know =)
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