this challenge is more pleaseant than going through the the list of things i hate about myself, hands down! its harder to write about this topic though. im not sure that i really know why. perhaps its because i tend to spend more time focusing on what i need to work on and change about myself than what is already working. dont know.
what i do know is that it was a mercifully short list and the one i went with was easy to decide on. i seem to be able to make people laugh. really laugh. and i love to see it when im working with them. on projects, at work, in spiritual groups. wherever i am. Ive been thanked for bringing levity and laughter to what either is already an amusing situation or has the potential to be a heavy or otherwise difficult one.
while it possibly started out as a defense mechanism as a kid, i dont know 100% where it comes from and i dont feel like its something i can plan, or write, or work on. its just there. i can access it anytime and while i love it about myself i also feel that it isnt something i have any control over. so its a gift. being able to feel the energy in a room helps, work with the flow around you, but at the end of the day its a gift. and i wouldnt swap it for anything. i feel very lucky.
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